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SLIDE; a tale of mental illness DEMO TRACKS

by Caren Tackett

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    THE PLOT

    Sarah grew up in a repressive and abusive familial environment. Since childhood, she's had visions and heard voices but her pleas for help were repeatedly dismissed. At a young age, she turned to hard
    drugs and alcohol to be able to deal with the voices, who tell her that she is the daughter of Jesus and Mary Magdalen - the rightful inheritor of the Kingdom. At this point, her demon, Big Jim, is revealed to her. She sees him everywhere she goes on the streets of her home city in the early 70's. After putting her hands on a stranger's infant, Sarah is arrested and placed in the state mental facility. She's medicated until lucid enough to stand trial, and then transferred to the state prison. There, Sarah must wait up to two days to go to court, and is given no medication. She unravels, is deemed unfit for trial and is confined to the state mental institution again. She goes back and forth like this for over seven years with no trial and no conviction, while convicted murderers serve lesser sentences and walk free. "S L I D E" takes place in Sarah's final two waiting days before she is finally sentenced to permanent confinement, or given permission to enter the "Gateway Program", a rehabilitation program for the mentally ill and addicts who are trying to reintegrate into society. Within these two days, Sarah's medication is wearing off again. She must confront her past, visions, demons, Judge, mother, court appointed psychiatrist, and her late father. ... more
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1.
Let Me Wander 03:50
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Tell me, what are you expecting to see I'm still that someone I've conducted your electricity Like a symphony What did you think would be left of me Manic function What were you hoping for specifically I still don't know Fragments of me I have shed the skin of society It's you who suffers I defy what you define me to be And I'm your buffer I am not asking for your empathy But let me wander When I grate against the slope of your sea Let me suffer Only ponder You don't know my mind You don't know the mind You don't know my mind You don't know the mind Won't you tell me what is left here of me Tidal thunder I will take all that you're offering me Wide with wonder I am not asking you to buy into me But let me ponder Your concept of what you call normalcy Let me wander Only ponder
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Amy and Brian 03:19
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Amy and Brian killed their newborn son Momma did I ever kill someone I have been here seven years They were out in twenty-four months Momma did I ever kill someone All of your children are my closest friends Trying to protect them is my sex offense The charges compile and wildly I defend But Amy and Brian they're out my friend Yeah they're out on the streets again Momma don't smoke on my account System can't seem to choke me down Last time we spoke I saw your life in sound When I awoke I couldn't turn around Amy and Brian killed their newborn son Momma did I ever kill someone I have been here over seven years They were out in twenty-four months They're just fine, Somehow I'm undone Momma did I ever kill someone
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Lady Baby 02:27
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Lady How could you do this Put baby blue through this Deprive her of air She's a baby You ask how I know it's a feeling that grows Inside my soul That only I feel but it's real 'Cause it's there so Lady How could you take her I'll chase you You'll break her I'll keep her alive There's too many But I know it's right to So lady I'll fight you Give me my baby my I'm open and over Your limited shoulder I've known you murderer You skulk in my corners And now here you are On this earth from my mind You won't unwind me I grew you inside me My baby My baby Where are you going They say My baby Be my baby Be my baby
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Word Salad 02:23
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Rip smile toast flee Blood file breast seed Fight born stuck stream Mud choke I wear this Flash burn cease fire Wrong turn long wire Song firm nerves churn My style I bear this She rose against the neck of my camera In prose delivered dreams to their door She knows my latitude my old man He grows with every seep of the score Touch feel hear That person in my fear Taste see stare It's living in my hair Meek mom Making love to her apron I'm wrong He's a cynical vagrant Tweak blonde Fabricated in mayhem Blame dawn Scratch and win never play them Feel hear touch No thank you very much Be see taste A pathway made of paste Stick stuck clip slide Hell no I'm wrong She's real you're gone Your tear I shed this Quick dust prick stride Bust sale mom lied Sediment green ash Backlash I wear this Gray storm mousy pride Backwards beat cat's eye In pursuit I'm her Your fruit I bear this Rip smile toast flee Blood file breast seed Fight born stuck stream Mud choke I wear this Taste see stare It's living in my hair Feel hear touch No thank you very much
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Wild Woman 03:38
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Here I am Here I've been waiting I am you Truth you're anticipating If you wait Freedom will find you In this state Within and behind you Wild woman Woman wild Come forth my child Wild woman Woman wild Come forth my child Blood remains Here you'll inherit Soul contains The highest merit System slows Evolution Bitter growth Foul confusion Wild woman Woman wild Come forth my child Wild woman Woman wild Come forth my child
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Feed the Fire 03:41
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Untie me, mother Stand by the others Stop with the cold stare Lit torches mid air However many years since my ship's been docked Feather friendly tears where my spirit rocks Others want to hover, make my senses shock Wait til they discover that the stops won't block Steer clear, never fear, Mediterranean flow Roma through my veins, subtle, strong it grows Rolling through the wind I hear my mother's throat Never hold my baby down, breathe the ground just float Feed the fire watch it yearn In just a while it'll be your turn Behold the dark one Brought up imprisoned Ripe fruit forbidden Secret and hidden Open the below Fall into who knows Your tale of ground floor Unveil I've found more Offer me an olive tree, poison in the fruit Fighting your pathology, all of me mute Frightening symbology in all of these suits Questioning the odd in me, a hollow tree's root Memories planted deep in me, I randomly relive them Accompanied by voices, fast attention I must give them I soar on dissonant chords ,warned of my own power Threatening, unsettling, to those who own the hour Feed the fire watch it yearn In just a while it'll be your turn
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Big Jim 01:44
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Don't believe in fantasy But call out your seraphims Exorcise my right to feel All in the name of Big Jim Big Jim the daemon Is looking at you through me And wouldn't you love to know what he sees Big Jim Brand me with your lengthy names And then stick me in your box Jim and I have grander plans I won't be left here to rot Not with Big Jim the daemon Is screaming for you to be Without your hypocrisy But you don't see Big Jim
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Paper Child 02:43
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Paper child Let me believe you need me Let me believe when you succeed That without my care you would never be So well off Come now paper child Let me tell you things that I think that you don't know And stay calm paper children don't have feelings to show And don't cry do you think I 'd believe it was so Bad Be glad you're paper child Be glad you're paper child Paper children can't be stupid Paper children can't be wrong Paper children can't sense tension Can't hear the way I'll carry on and on and on Be glad you're paper child Paper child You'll do exactly as I say here Eat sleep and breathe and pray here And you'll appreciate my ways Paper child You won't need to hear I love you Won't need that mother daughter bond What's that anyway And you'll never be late for dinner You'll clean up your plate Be glad you're paper child Be glad your'e made of paper Paper children don't have feelings Paper children do not care Paper children don't get married And then wonder how they got there Paper children can't remember Can't remember things I've said Paper children can't disown me Can not live like I am dead Paper children may not love me Paper children may not need But they won't think they're above me And they'll never disbelieve Paper children don't have fun Paper children do not kiss Paper children don't make love Paper children will not miss
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My Big Break 03:08
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This is my big break This is my big break Mrs Miss Mistake This is my big break Feel the prism slide The winter cuts inside Feel my three hearts beat In rhythm with my nine left feet This is my big break This is my big break Mrs Miss mistake Kisses, this is my big break Blisses feel so real Senses congeal Fences shift their feel Demons depth revealed This is my big break This is my big break Medicinal stiff snowflake Kisses Misses This is my big break And the sun comes shining through My big break It's prime time I found me a friend
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Get Thee Behind Me 02:41
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Seven years I'm getting pissed I'm being shuffled through the system Never killed no one, I kissed them Don't you dare say you're a victim The drugs I had I kicked them Nobody wants to listen To the reason I first blissed on Sick repression from the bitch mom Maybe this will stop the itch, mom Muddy life is not a sitcom Now I'm rocked and not a bit calm Wasting paper you said it, mom Get thee behind me, Satan Get thee behind me, Satan I hear you in there Making music with my dark side Get thee behind me, Satan I'll char your ass to bacon I hear your sass You're making music with my dark side The devil is alive And it's in fantastic shape You fear it so it thrives and tells me Everybody's fake Revere it wide and thickly You give it all it's power Yet I'm the one who's sickly 'Cause I hear it in the shower What Get thee behind me, bacon I'll char your ass to Satan I hear your sass You're making music with my dark side The devil is alive But not where you would think It's hiding in the tv In the church the kitchen sink The devil is alive And it's in fantastic shape You fear it so it thrives And tells me everybody's fake What Get thee behind me, Satan Get thee behind me, Satan I hear you in there Making music with my dark side Get thee behind me, Satan I'll char your ass to bacon I hear your sass You're making music with my dark side Get thee behind me
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No Cause For Alarm 03:36
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Sorry, I don't think I heard you right Could you say it again and this time could you slow it down Leave it to you to disrupt such a peaceful night Leave it to you to turn me upside down Come now, let's not patronize Were you thinking did you think I'm dumb Do you really want to hear what I have to say I'll just leave it with a thank you And it's been fun and how about I really hope we meet again someday Don't you worry about me, I'm just shaken I need a little, it's just a little unclear I need a minute to gather my thoughts, believe me There's no cause for alarm Don't you worry, I'm not going to go insane I'm fine out here alone in the pouring rain Go inside where it's warm and dry, it's just pain, I'm not bleeding There's no cause for alarm Sorry, are you really going to leave it there With a tear in your eye you look so sad to see me go You don't give a damn couldn't understand how I feel So if you don't mind don't look at me like you know Come now, you never would good at lies So you can stop hanging your head acting like your so ashamed If you're honestly sorry, why can't you meet my eyes I'm sure it was worth it, but do you even know my name Don't you worry about me, the sky's just spinning I need a little, I've got to get some air I've lost my step, I think I need to sit down, but believe me There's no cause for alarm Don't you worry for a second, I'm still alive I don't know where I'm going, but I'm fine to drive I'm off center now, but I will survive, so don't sweat it There's no cause for alarm I'm not bleeding There's no cause for alarm I've known you for far too long To be fooled by really I understand So I'm sorry, I can't let you walk away guilt free I don't buy it, I know you like the back of my hand.
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I Was Thinking 04:57
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I have a memory recurring The year, my age, all that stays blurry Winter's air I breathed in, it was burning The pulse of your warm palm was yearning Tunnels of snow, ignoring cold and wetness Then home again, I can't forget this I gave my hot chocolate cup a tip You didn't hear me enter, not a bit I was thinking, I was thinking Sitting on the stair while you were there and drinking I was thinking of you Remember only pieces of the night You figured out that something wasn't right I crashed your car, called you with my broken hand Momma come get me, don't know where I am I was thinking, I was thinking The entire time I wasn't even blinking But I was thinking of you I was thinking, I was thinking Sitting on the stair while you were there and drinking I was thinking of you I was thinking, I was thinking White on white I rolled, my soul was slowly shrinking But I was thinking of you I was thinking, I was thinking White on white I rolled, my soul was slowly shrinking But I was thinking of you
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Thorazine Shuffle 01:59
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I am an unemployable trip An unavoidable dip This is but one enjoyable sip One gun's deployable clip Why the brain breaks Die, the pain aches How does the brain sustain metabolic flow Does anybody know Increased metabolic demands, show of hands Metabolic flow, does anybody grow Schizophrenia may just be a Costly byproduct of human brain evolution Fuck your solutions I am a revolutional bitch An evolutional itch It's one electrocutional sitch Leaving one with a fun contusional twitch Thorazine, Haldol, Artane, perphenazine Clonazepam, QHS, whey protein Risperdal, zyprexa. abilify, Branch chained amino acids, lexapro Wish you well What good could ever come from Has anyone ever truly healed from Four hundred fifty volts of I can't remember chunks of life How odd odd odd odd Odd odd odd odd odd
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Mamas and Papas 04:55
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Mamas and Papas Be nice, be nice Before you lay your hands on your children Think twice, think twice We're little, but we're wise Just might know more than you Mamas and Pa's, listen to your little ones You could learn something too Sister and brother Take care take care Be there for each other Be there, be there Only you know how to deal with the fall Growing together and seeing it all Talk to each other it's all right to recall How mamas and papas sometimes drop the ball Mamas and Papas Be nice, be nice While you dream your dreams for them Think twice For the day they find your words don't ring true Choices they made a reflection of you One day you don't know them and it's gnawing you through What did you do, what did you do Shouldn't you have said More important to have won Mamas and Papas Be strong, be strong Be there for each other Shouldn't you have said Couldn't you have done Now it's begun
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Spine 02:21
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It all depends Not a bad, not a sad life My notes bend Like the sag of a bagpipe All my friends Come in shards like a fragment Thoughts fall hard From the sides where my Dad went Spine, Crawling up my spine One vertebrae at a time Diving off the incline Into my my mind You feel queer I can't hold you slip, slide I'm not here I'm through you and on all sides You exist In limited dimensions Mine are nine They divert my attention Spine, Crawling up my spine One vertebrae at a time Diving off the incline Into my my mind You feel near I console you, slip, slide I'm right here Fighting hard on the flip side Sarah dear If you're patient we'll deal love Stay vacant Only feel what is real love Spine, Crawling up my spine One vertebrae at a time Diving off the incline Into my my mind
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Good It's Done 04:36
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Mother Mary, I am your garden's growth Moth Mary, gave me your solemn oath This place is scary, so when can I hold your hand Mother, carry me from this unholy land I am not from this town I bear the thorny crown Mother Mary Guess I could be the one But look what good it's done At odds with everyone We all hear voices in the night My problem was I brought mine to the light And look what good it's done No one believes me, it was the same for you Words deceive me, can't separate fear from truth I'll live your burden through and persevere;ole you Mother Mary, all of my faith in you And look what good it's done At odds with everyone We all have thoughts that begin to cloud My problem was that I spoke out loud And look what good it's done Mother Mary, I am your garden's growth And look what good it's done At odds with everyone We all have a secret or two or three My problem is I set mine free And look what good it's done
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Perspective 03:59
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Yes I have a song And maybe you would like to hear it Yeah there's a thing or two that I could still Say to you And yes I have some demons And yes I hear them, too But that doesn't mean they don't Speak through you Maybe my wishes are the sum of your fears Maybe my seconds are to you more like years Maybe my time takes up all of your space Maybe my freedom resides in your hiding place And I am hiding here for anyone to see For though you will never know you'll know a shade of me And I'm living here in such a minor key But there's still harmony there's still a catchy melody Yes I have a light That maybe you would like to stand in But it's a private invitation So no you can't bring your friends And yes I have a mind There for your understanding Study my face now can you tell Where my truth begins and if it ends And maybe my angel is what you call demon And maybe my conscious state is what you call dreaming And maybe my serenity is the spark of your fuse And maybe my peace is your mother's abuse And I am crying here For anyone to tease For though you may throw your stones You'll never bring me to my knees And I will be waiting here Til you've taken all you need Because I'm never empty I overflow infinitely
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Who I Am Now 03:42
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Maybe you could be proud I'm proud of you mother You were meant to fly So was I Maybe we were both denied Maybe we could hold each other And cry out loud Mother I identify Through all the years I've Realized how much I hardly know you Who tried to Divine my plan Immersed in centuries past Grasping as you fear the future And don't ask Who I am now My unfolding Left you in fear it's okay to say The cross you're holding It's purpose is unclear but hey let's pray I've watched you completely Misunderstanding your savior Always Your only one While constantly and never discreetly Reprimanding my behavior And yes that's Where I'm from wow I give you my blessing You did the best with what you had to follow Acceptance Is my newest vow I've lived through the guessing Resting my faith within a gray tomorrow Let's find out Who we are now
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Liberate 03:35
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Oh my There's a reason you've crawled in my mind It's the season of falling behind And I'm right in time, just waiting for signs Go high With the wondrous map of my mind Such discoveries you wish to find But you're falling behind and much too entwined La la la La la la la La la la la la La la la La la la la La la la la You hope In the beautiful slope of my brain You can find some proof that you are sane If I'm not the same in the world that you've claimed Somehow I can feel the sunlight on my face I can rock my voices right through space I man the controls as I roll with my souls La la la La la la la La la la la la La la la La la la la La la la la
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To Be Clear 04:41
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If you don't know Why should I tell If you don't vibe Why should I gel Don't you feel dry There in your hell I wish you well If you don't care Why do I talk So go on stare As I walk my walk If you see what's there I'll hide my shock Circling your block If you won't live Tell real good lies Plan what they give Then act surprised Never forgive the compromise Just snap at flies Today I have this paper Somebody somewhere saved her Hope she minds her behavior Today I'm someone's straight line I've crossed your mental state line Told you they'd never take mine Today I have this feeling The universe is healing It's suddenly appealing If you don't mind Why am I here If you're not blind Why ain't it clear If you're not scared Why can't I steer What do you fear Today I drink clear water You may think I forgot her But I'm someone else's daughter One gift that I can give them Is the sense that I am with them I'll live there in their rhythm

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SLIDE; a concept album telling a fictional story about a woman diagnosed with mental illness trapped within a dysfunctional society.

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released October 11, 2018

All Songs Written by Caren Tackett**

Demo Produced by Marc Benning EXCEPT "Get Thee Behind Me," "I Was Thinking" & "Good It's Done," produced by Caren Tackett
Sound Engineer: Ian Bourgal
Guitar: Inaiah Lujan
Bass: Marc Benning
Drums: Carl Sorenson
Trumpet: Grant Sabin
Saxophone: Dwight Bement
Vocals: Caren Tackett

**"No Cause For Alarm" - music co-written by Spencer Stander
**"Wild Womyn," "Feed the Fire," & "Who I Am Now"
- music co-written by David Malochowski

Album artwork by Jesse Lucero
Additional recording and engineering: Adam Hawkins, Right Heel Music

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slide - a tale of mental illness Manitou Springs, Colorado

Caren Tackett is a singer/songwriter from rural MA. Her roots are in jazz and blues, but she has also found success as a leading Broadway performer and Voice-Over talent.

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